In this world of change, nothing which comes stays, and nothing which is gone is lost......
I find that true. As a believer and yet a skeptic, I struggle from time to time with what is real and what is not. Who am I to decided other than to say I go with my gutt. Change brings about so many things...is it the right change? Is it the change one has been lookig for??? Who knows, because I can only speak for myself. I look back, and sometimes see a reflection of someone I was, times when I was happy, and times when I was sad and time when I was so down that in reality it was nearly impossible for me to een know how I was going to function in this world. I felt so out of place, my past and memories follwed me in my head no matter how hard I tried to deflect them. I became a hostess for them, and I didn't know how to get rid of them.
I couldn't, I don't think anyone can. I had to rehabilitate.....only to learn how to deal with them and to stop allowing such things to take up rent in my head. I have cried for what I have lost, and yes even cried over the people who have hurt me but I have rejoiced in the gains.
My children are growing and leaving and that's a big "Wow!" Holy cow, when did this happen? Where did the time go???
Yes, I cried when my daughter left home, to start her own life....she could not be caged no matter how much I wanted her to be. To know, my other daughter, 23 and has a life of her own as well, and a beautiful son, my grandson....again when did this happen, where did all the time go??? My youngest daughter 18 years in a few days, will graduate and in less than a year will be going off to college and well....that's it, that's how it goes. I did my best, I did what I thought were the reight things to do...were they always the right choices???
I don't know.
I have loved and I love. That's all that I could do!!
“Here's to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They're not fond of rules. And they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can't do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do.”
“For what it’s worth: it’s never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.”
